# Internal Magnified Resistance
**When and why do I push back? What motivates me?**
I think there are several reasons:
1. Fear of finding my limits
2. Fear of giving up control of my:
- Narrative?
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## Holy Shit
I’m remembering writing this same thing—was it last year or 10 years ago?
Grrr.
So, what I might need is to acknowledge that this is a part of me. To recognize what problem do I have to apply to this situation?
### How about **[[Speaking Up]]**
- **REACT**
- **REFRAME **
- **ENGAGE **
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I have to let myself have my reaction. Can I start to just notice what it looks like?
There’s a part of me that is “speaking up.” And that is a core piece of me.
I can call him “Loony.”
I can have compassion for Loony, and I can help Loony undergo → [[cognitive reframing]] of the moment.
Loony is reacting because “That’s just how he is. He hated being told what to do.”
**Reframe:** Loony might be missing an opportunity to…
1. Have fun
2. Feel good
3. Be viewed as “quirky fun Uncle”
**Engage:** Why do I want Loony to control how much fun I have? I can wrestle control back of my narrative.
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