- [x] Set timer for 20 minutes - [x] Start writing What is the price to pay? Why push and struggle? What would it look like to be more available? What would it look like to have more outside time? I think it's time to do the experiment. What would make the experiment most feasible? I think going to per diem at CH would get me there in some ways but I need a clean break really to feel the freedom. I think if I'm totally off the threads, the texts, the constant worry, that I would be totally different. Totally more relaxed. Totally able to help in Littleton. I think jumping is just what I have done! I can land mostly with two feet. I want to have more life to my life. And CH is just sucking the life out of my life.